On September 19th, 2006, Angie and I posted a declaration of our love for each other. We called it Love in Bloom.
We had “met” each other on an internet forum, more fully explained in my blog post Love and Friendships in Cyberspace. That declaration of love was desecrated. Both Angie and I were insulted and criticized as a couple and as individuals. Therefore I wish to preserve our original declaration of love here, in my blog---in my sanctuary—shielding it from the nihilism and malice it was previously subjected to. Apparently, we were “asking for it" by the simple fact of being open about it. Strange, Angie and I simply thought of it as a celebration ---we wanted to share that celebration with what we thought was an extended cyber family, to share what we had found in each other.
I have come to refer to that forum as a “snake-pit”. There have been some people who are skeptical to the justified anger I felt (and feel) given what happened, but I would hope that by posting here what is “sacred” to me should demonstrate, to some degree, to those who care to see, how I view myself and Angie... and the rarity and preciousness of love. The envy and malice that Angie and I have been subjected to was very upsetting to us both--and it is merely adding insult to injury to have those people underplay and deny the damage caused, the total inappropriateness of the behavior exhibited.
Here is the original Love in Bloom. First a post from me and then Angie—two posts and that is it. As it should have been, but somewhere else….like here.
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VICTOR:
Angie is the most beautiful women—inside and out—that I have ever come across in my life.
Angie is not my ideal woman. That is, it would have been impossible for me to project in my own mind everything that she is. The image of my ideal woman falls short to the reality that is Angie. She is much more than what I would allow myself to hope for. The image in my mind of the “ideal woman” does not do her justice. She is much more. I have been known to call her an “angel” and that is what she is: she ascends way above what I must now consider the poverty of my imagination. But I am compensated for this “lack of imagination” because, my God, Angie loves me right back. Now that’s truly ideal. Angie and I “met” no place other than here [….]
We bantered back and forth for a while and then we started to communicate with each other in private email. We immediately connected and did so at an accelerated rate. It blew me away to discover how simpatico our values are. It was a definite case of visibility; it was a total “mirror image” that we both reflected. The spiritual-intellectual-emotional connection has been great. That powerful connection’s voltage increased a thousand watts more when we spoke on the phone. It was a three hour conversation that seemed like a mere three minutes. Now, in not more than a mere month, we have become one [and the amazing thing here is that the both of us have retained our individuality!]
Our next step is to meet in the flesh. But I did want to now openly announce how we feel for each other, to put an end to the rumors, to now place it in the realm of fact. Angie, I adore you. I love you! Thank you for returning that love.
ANGIE:
ANGIE:
"I'm truly and honestly at a complete loss for words. It is true that Victor and I have connected and romance is definitely in the air. Even though it's only been a short time, it was very sudden for me and it was bound to happen. We are so much alike on so many levels it truly is like looking in a mirror. I've never met anyone like him and probably never will again. I would be a fool to allow him to slip through my fingers. He exceeds everything I could ever want in a man. I have a tremendous amount of admiration and respect for him. He truly inspires me.
We've talked quite a bit through email over the last month or so and the connection was there immediately. Even when we spoke on the phone, I didn't want to let him go. We hit it off so well. There was nothing awkward about it. It was almost as if we had known each other for years. The conversation flowed very naturally as soon as we heard each other's voices. We were both completely at ease with each other.I've found him entering my thoughts where ever I go now. I can't get enough of him. I want him. As the days have gone by, that connection we had in the beginning has turned into love. I can honestly say that I do love him. I love him for everything that he represents as to what a man is supposed to be. His online persona is so different in private. He is the most caring, most loving, most respectful man I have ever met. He is absolutely beautiful to me. And I'm still floored that he feels the same way I do.
This has been totally surreal for me. I sometimes feel as if I am in a dream and it can't be happening and that any moment I'm going to wake and realize it was just that -- a dream. But it's not. It's happening and it's happening to me. I never thought I would ever run across someone like Victor. It amazes me that out of all the places to meet my Mr. Right I found him here. He is everything that I could possibly want in a man. He exceeds everything that I could possibly want in a man. You are breathtakingly beautiful to me, Honey. I do love you. I am so very excited and anxious to finally meet which will be very soon. From there, it will be one hell of an adventure.
We're already like two teenagers together. You know what I'm talking about, "You hang up," "No, you hang up first," "No, you hang up," "Okay, we'll hang up together then." I thought that was adorable and precious. We truly bring out each other's sense of life even more and that is the Atlantis that is in both of us. I have no doubt that this will be a romantic love affair that will span a life time. I love you, Victor.
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